80 posts from 2008

What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
I was front and center at a NIN show, twice.

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year?
I don't remember if or what I resolved last year so I couldn't tell you if I kept it. Next year, I will meet him. It will be my final shot and it will happen.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Someone I know had a baby, yes.

Did anyone close to you die?
No.

What countries did you visit?
America.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A pussycat. I miss having a pussycat.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
August 29th. The NIN Philly show where I met Brett and Mr. Reznor saw that I exist.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Understanding myself more and letting slide the things that are sure to make me insane.

What was your biggest failure?
Not always, always letting things slide and feeling the sickness it causes me.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Just the usual colds.

What was the best thing you bought?
A fancy new computer.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Greg, for going above and beyond what any contractor should do for a little thing like me.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Bean. She has become 14 and acts 14, sneaking, lying, blah blah blah.

Where did most of your money go?
Christmas and that fancy new computer.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
All of the NIN shows, especially Baltimore.

What song will always remind you of 2008?
1,000,000 by NIN.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Mildly sadder simply for no other reason than just being stressed.
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
I wish I would have kept in contact with people a little better. I was awful at returning emails and phone calls unless they were work related.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Hiding. The past few weeks I've been hiding a lot more than usual.

How did you spend Christmas?
Dee, Vic, Bean, Pixi and Wii.

Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nope.

How many one-night stands?
Zero.

What was your favorite TV program?
True Blood.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope. I hate everyone exactly the same.

What was the best book you read?
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

What was your greatest musical discovery of 2008?
Hm. I don't know that I listened to anything new this year. Ludo? They rule. Maybe them.

What did you want and get?
Hot pink shag and a fancy new computer.

What did you want and not get?
A pussycat.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Superbad, maybe.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
30. NIN the day before and then The Pop Shop with the girls.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Nothing. All was how it should be.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Flannels. Always.

What kept you sane?
Eckhart Tolle.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Mr. Reznor.

What political issue stirred you the most?
Ridiculousness of Sarah Palin.

Who did you miss?
Shadow. I'll miss him forever.

Who was the best new person you met?
Greg and Brett.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
I've learned the choice of being happy or being sad, the choice of listening to the ego and either believing it or not and I've learned that I'm just fine even when I'm not fine.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
“I hit back when hit and attack when attacked" - Truce - Dresden Dolls.

Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks. What are you thankful for today?

• Seeing NIN a ninth time is still just as special as the first time.
• This is the first time that I did not cry during the show.
• This is also the first time that I felt like I belonged in that audience.
• Philly left me feeling highly unwanted.
• Atlantic City left me feeling highly loved.
• I am still just one human away from Mr. Reznor.
• Always so close, still so far.
• I met a bunch of incredible people.
• I love them all.
• The post-show depression (PSD) is hitting me harder than ever.
• I blame it on not crying during the show.
• Stability wavers.

It's Election Day! How was your voting experience?

Choices

I love you. I know you love me too. I have much evidence that you do. I believe in you. I know you believe in me.

I just wanted to drop you a note and let you know that I am ready. I have been through all of the ins and outs, the desperate want, the being so close but still so far. I have dreamed the dreams, lived through it in my head, planned, cried and even risked my life for a single moment that you helped make possible. That moment was made possible when I released all control and simply followed your flow. I am ready now to give you control completely.

I am here now waiting to feel your drift. I believe and have total faith that all things are possible... even this. You have control and I will simply follow, not stopping until we reach this goal together and we will have so much fun.

I realize that I may not have been ready before because when it came close, my brain and fear took over and I thought "I am not ready", thus jinxing your outcome that you had all lined up for me. That will not happen again. Now I am ready. I am sure of  it.

I look forward to this adventure that we're about to have. It will be so wonderful.

I love you.
I trust you.
I believe.

~ Christine

I have a rule in my life: I don't talk politics. I've followed this rule pretty damn well for my 30 years on this planet. The election is very soon and I find myself watching the debates while screaming at the TV as if it's a football game. Still, in the presence of other people I have kept my opinions to myself... usually. Sarah Palin has a way of bringing out the devil in me, but that's pretty okay. She's evil herself.

I live in a house with republicans. Well, one republican and one who... simply listens to the republicans. I do not define myself as being a part of any political party. I see pros and cons to both sides. I believe the leader of the free world should be... get this... a LEADER. He should be someone who can rally the world to fight for the same cause. He should be someone who I can stand behind and believe in. He should be someone I trust. Whether or not he has fought in a war doesn't matter to me, nor does his age, religion or skin color.

Being a human is what matters to me. He should have the ability to listen when someone speaks and to answer questions when they're asked even if I don't agree with them. He needs to be able to form simple sentences and not skirt around issues. He has to be educated, compassionate, understanding and someone who believes in the universe. This will be the first time I vote for a president.

I am writing this post mostly due to my mother. She isn't a stupid woman. She isn't a redneck, a crazy christian, or a news junky. She did, however, have the ability to fuel the fire in me when she spit out the words "Obama is a terrorist. He's friends with terrorists. Look up your facts." ... just like that Palin cunt.

Well, I have looked up my facts. Have you?

My mother, when speaking to me about Obama, didn't sound unlike these people and that makes me very, very sad for our country.

Please, people... please... look at BOTH sides before you make your decision. Get facts on BOTH sides, not just one. Don't believe everything the media spits out. Research on your own. We have the internet for a reason. Use it.