Everything

Have you ever had a dream that was seemingly impossible? A dream you wanted so badly that it was painful to think about? Have you planned, wished, prayed and nearly died for this dream?

Then did you finally reach the point where you release all that hope and want because it's just too exhausting? It seems too impossible but you aren't hurt by that realization. It's a relief to let it go...

And then the universe shifts and magically hands you all you ever wanted?

That happened to me yesterday.

When I was 19 I bought a dress. I spent $60 on the perfect dress for an occasion I knew would one day happen. I kept it in perfect condition. I never wore it because it was for one certain day.

Years passed. Every springtime when it became time for the annual closet cleaning, I would see the dress and it reminded me of it's purpose. I can't tell you how many times I thought about finally tossing it out. Still. There was a small voice that always said I had to keep it. Even if it was only as a reminder.

"Thats the dress I'm going to wear when I meet Trent Reznor."

I had no idea when I was 19 that I would be 30 when that dress would finally have it's chance. See, yesterday I won backstage passes for the June 5th show in Camden.

That dress though, it got me thinking...

Jim Carey wrote a check to himself for what? 10 million dollars when he was broke. Oprah bought those skinny jeans way back when and finally fit in them. People do law of attraction things all the time and it works. I, at 19, bought a dress with an intended purpose.

It saddens me a little that I won't be wearing that dress on that day. I'm far too old and my ass is far too wide for it now. It is a lovely dress though.

I am meeting him. Finally.